Showing posts with label confessions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label confessions. Show all posts

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Monday's motives...Love yourself

I know, I know, it has been so very long! But I have some motives for Monday! My motive is to motivate! I didn't want to Title this blog post as "Motivational Monday or Monday's Motivation". Because it's always what is put as a title.
I want to motivate you all, and that is my motive!

Do you feel depressed? I know we all have our moments where we feel depressed, and if you don't, you are one lucky soul!

Sometimes we don't even know why we are depressed! And sometimes finding "why" we are so depressed can make us even more depressed and wondering or thinking what wrong with us for it!

And sometimes we know why, but we keep telling ourselves it's something else. It's unwise to lie to yourself, I have learned that through time. Sometimes I feel other people's pain, and end up in tears, I used to wonder what was wrong with me when this would happen...Until I started noticing more of what was happening around me that I put the pieces together. 

Everyone makes mistakes, don't beat yourself up over them, don't let those types of thoughts drown or consume you! 

Let yourself go through the emotions, do what you feel you need to do to help you get passed whatever you might be going through. If you want change, please don't be afraid to keep going until you are who you want to be! You can be your own enemy, OR you can be your own hero, and make yourself do what you need to, to get through and overcome the depression, to find your soul, and your true happiness! Trust, you will know when that day comes, because looking back won't be as painful, it will only be a reflection filled with relief! 

Sometimes I feel 
And other times I say
To stay positive I tell myself (no matter how long it takes)
And always remember 

The most important thing I can ask, is that you never ever give up on yourself! 
Love is where ever you will allow yourself to see it!
 Signing off with many prayers and blessings!



Sunday, March 8, 2015

Relationships, just thoughts...

There are so many days I wish I was in a relationship, I miss being held close, I miss having someone I can share those intimate thoughts with. Walking hand in hand, laying in the spoon position, long hours of gentle yet assuring silence. A simple kiss on my cheek or forehead, just because. A loving glance across the room. I haven't really experienced that too many times in my life time...I'm sad to admit.

I really haven't had many relationships to reassure myself that I make a good partner! I know I am a good friend, a good moral support, a motivator, and I try to inspire others to follow their hearts desire into the parts of themselves that they are too afraid to be, for fear of rejection or critics.

Am I a good partner in a relationship? I haven't had a real relationship for 5+ years. Am I broken? I wonder if I could even stand being with someone ever again, if I would care about myself enough to be happy with someone other than myself. There are so many questions I ask myself when it comes to thoughts of "finding someone"...Am I lovable? I believe I am, I love me...Obviously. But will someone else love me...For me?

I'm a single mom, it's hard work, my son in now 14, taller than me and boys are hard to raise.

It's been a long time, I am torn between, "do I want to be with someone?" or "do I want to end up alone when my son grows old enough to move out on his own?"!

Is that sad? It makes me feel sad, just thinking and writing about it. :-(

Am I breaking my own heart? I have only "been with" two men. I'm 36...
I have always told myself "No settling" for no love and just a partner, so here is what it has me at...
When it comes to that part of my life * love, romance* and actually having any..I am saddened by thoughts of "maybe I am not good enough to be in a relationship", but I miss being loved in such a way. Is that loneliness? Maybe, but I don't know.

I am craving to find someone I have chemistry with...That has only happened once...To be honest. Everything else in live seems easy comparing it to romance.
I don't know what else to write.

Have a good week.
Ann