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Monday's motives...Love yourself

I know, I know, it has been so very long! But I have some motives for Monday! My motive is to motivate! I didn't want to Title this blog post as "Motivational Monday or Monday's Motivation". Because it's always what is put as a title.

I want to motivate you all, and that is my motive!

Do you feel depressed? I know we all have our moments where we feel depressed, and if you don't, you are one lucky soul!

Sometimes we don't even know why we are depressed! And sometimes finding "why" we are so depressed can make us even more depressed and wondering or thinking what wrong with us for it!

And sometimes we know why, but we keep telling ourselves it's something else. It's unwise to lie to yourself, I have learned that through time. Sometimes I feel other people's pain, and end up in tears, I used to wonder what was wrong with me when this would happen...Until I started noticing more of what was happening around me that I put the pieces together. 

Everyone makes mistakes, don't beat yourself up over them, don't let those types of thoughts drown or consume you! 

Let yourself go through the emotions, do what you feel you need to do to help you get passed whatever you might be going through. If you want change, please don't be afraid to keep going until you are who you want to be! You can be your own enemy, OR you can be your own hero, and make yourself do what you need to, to get through and overcome the depression, to find your soul, and your true happiness! Trust, you will know when that day comes, because looking back won't be as painful, it will only be a reflection filled with relief! 

Sometimes I feel 

And other times I say

To stay positive I tell myself (no matter how long it takes)

And always remember 

The most important thing I can ask, is that you never ever give up on yourself! 

Love is where ever you will allow yourself to see it!

 Signing off with many prayers and blessings!

6 years is a long time...

6 years is a very long time to be a single mother,
I think I am ready for love, possibly even; a best friend and a lover,
I want something ever lasting, compassionate, encouraging and kind,
I don't want a simple on again, off again; lover who will only ,keep playing with my mind,
I want someone who does their best to be stable,
I want someone reliable, intelligent and strong,
Someone who has a confidence, with small insecurities hidden underneath,
Someone who will talk to me, because they can tell I am feeling sad,
Someone who will listen, at those times when I'm feeling bad,
Someone who can see my pain, but corressess it with their heart,
Not someone who picks at it as if it were a freshly dried up scab,
I have scars on the outside, but also those hidden from within,
Things I dare not tell anyone,
I want someone who will hear with their heart; my secrets, but not use them to harm me,
I don't care how successfully they are in wealth, that is not the plan, nor the goal,
Their success is their goal, not my goal in a love,
I don't want someone who brags about their riches,
I don't want someone who brags about some kind of fame,
I just want someone to be themselves, so I can learn for myself,
I want someone who shows me love, and doesn't have to say it everyday,
And most importantly, I want them to be patient, with me, my moods, but most of all my child as being a part of me!

Have a great night everyone, I know it's been a while, but I have been going through some things physically, emotionally and spiritually. And I've waited to post something special.

~)Ann(~

It's been a while, and it's almost Christmas!

Hello bloggers and INTERNET surfers, if you just happened to come across my blog, please feel free to check out other blog posts in order to see what it is I blog about here!

It's been a while since my last blog, as I had stated in previous blogs, I am in school now, I am studying to become a hair dresser, some may be shocked, but those who really know me wont be surprised at all! I've always wanted to do this, I love it and I feel like I am dreaming when I am just sitting around at school wondering what task to go to next. It almost brings tears to my eyes that I am actually there! Is that happiness? Is it a life long goal finally met? I believe so, and I can't remember ever feeling that way, about something I've done for myself.

I'm not the best there, but I know I am good! I did 4 different hair cuts yesterday and the people and myself are happy with the end results!

I'm also here to say Merry Christmas to everyone, I may not post before Christmas and I don't know how long it will be before I post something afterwards. Either way though, I'd like you all to know that I do miss you all and that I do often wonder how you are all doing!

Enjoy your Holiday, with safety, love and happiness with Family and Friends.

And always know, There is always someone who cares. Take care

Ann
PS- I'll be keep all those who were taken from us too soon, and praying for their families not to suffer grief too deeply. My heart goes out to you in comfort at this time.

I'm a blogger slacker...

Sorry for being such a slacker everyone, but truly it's been a good summer, so far!

I've been accepted into a school in a field I've been wanting, since before I dropped out of high school, so many years ago. I'm now awaiting the loan acceptance so that I can start school in October!

So in the mean time, while waiting and being excited, and doubting myself as well as, planning on the childcare and bills and all that other good and fun life stuff(insert sarcasm here lol)...I feel I need to stay focused and positive and ignore any nagging negative thoughts and distractions from the outside trying so badly to intervene with my keeping positive, for myself as well as my son!

It's all trying and life testing... to say the least. I know I usually post opinions and advice here, etc. I felt the need to express my where about's, so that people don't think I fell off the face of the earth... for quite some time. So other than a few moments of drama and such, that I have been doing my best to put behind me...I'm alright, a long time friend and I had a few times out with our children to the beach and a shopping trip, and me trying to step out of my shell a bit for social atmospheric needs (that sounds funny I know, I'm a bit odd lol), things have been alright.

I try not to get my hopes too high, while also trying really hard to stay positive. I've had a lot of false hopes happen to me in the past, so I tread each day slowly and try my best not to over look anything that might make me hit a brick wall along the way. It's like a kid waiting in line for ice cream...You want to push fast and hard ahead to get that nice cold treat, yet you know something will stop you if you do, you might fall and hit others along the way, or hurt yourself, etc. So I go slow, steady and take things easy, even if I want to push ahead fast to get there ASAP lol...It's trying on my patience! BUT I'M WAITING!

I really feel like the turtle wanting to win the race, but I can't go any faster.

Well I hope you like my little update and you haven't missed me much (if I was missed), I hope you all have a great rest of the week!

AnnJ

PS-I hope to post a bit sooner this time, it was a long time in between posts this time, I'm really sorry about that, I had a bit of a depressing time in between that time frame as well, which I do not wish to discuss! Thanks for your understanding :-)

Some inspirational images

Hello everyone

just posting some inspiration for you all to keep positive and keep your strength!

Have a great day everyone and I hope your weekend ahead is filled with happiness and peace!

This might interest you!

Ex's and New relationships...

Hello everyone
This has been going through my mind lately, I have had times where I have seen friends or even family members go on and on about their ex's. I have also seen them do this while in arguments with their new relationships.

What I'd like to say is this, "If you bring up your ex and do not share a child with them, it is not a healthy thing to talk about for your new/current relationship in general".

I'm no expert at relationships, but I do know, when a new relationship starts, I personally do not want to hear about the ex's, I don't talk about my ex's. I would however like to point out that, when you have a child with an ex, it might be more acceptable if they might happen to be discussed, but only when you have a child with that ex, as it is just inevitable. But if you have any ex's that you don't have children with, speaking about them can ruin your chances of that new relationships survival.

Personally, I don't like it when I get compared (whether positive or negative) to an ex. It just feels wrong, it's a total turn off and feels like it's only a means of smooth talking/flattery that I do not like to know. Here is an example, I don't want to be told my so and so body part is so much better than your ex's body part. I am feeling judged, not impressed or feeling at all confident that you like me or my body part better!

I'd also like to add that if ex's are going to be discussed, let the other bring it up, if you want to talk about it, you will. For me it is undesirable to bring ex's up, unless they want to talk about your past relationships...Is it a smart move? If that relationship has ended, isn't it meant to stay in the past?

Here are the reasons why I don't think it's a smart move to discuss ex's in new relationships.
No one likes to be compared to anyone else, because it feels judgmental, like you're not over that ex(s), as if you have to compete with someone that shouldn't even be discussed, that you're not good enough, that you need to do better than the ex in order to not hear about them anymore. Worse of all we think, that you're not over them. I hope I have explained this all right, and so others can understand it well enough.

I'd like to point out, if you have a miscommunication with an ex, and they don't know about the new relationship and have tried to communicate with you because you just come and go in their life and they need answers or even closure. I don't feel that ex should be to blame for any future relationship problems. It's not fair to leave someone in the dark, or hanging on for nothing if you're not going to call them back or even see them again. Keeping a person on a string as a means of a "back up plan" is unfair, wrong and just harder for them to trust or even forgive you (or anyone else for that matter) for it. If they care, it's very heartbreaking to find out you've found someone new, and even worse if you are still leading them on...And your idea of closure is to let them see you with someone else...when you didn't say anything.

But than again there are those crazy ex's who show up at your door screaming at you and looking psychotically at the new girl/guy. Those ex's you just can't ignore discussing in a new relationship. Those are the kinds that need the law to keep them away (if it works), and if your new relationship is meant to last, they will be understanding of the psychopath who just is so obsessed that they can't think of or do anything else...until of course someone they feel is better comes a long(for your sake lets hope so!) and then they leave you alone. Word of advice, be sure you warn your new girl/guy of that ex right away!

There are just so many reason why we should not bring up ex's. This was just to name a few. I feel I was maybe programed to know this stuff or just acquired this information over time. Either way, it feels programmed into my brain to know that discussing ex's isn't healthy(unless it's to warn about a crazy Ex of course) for a new relationship.

Yes there is some personally added feelings here so others can understand a bit better, there are also personally added parts of what I have seen others experience in there too. Please do not judge nor assume what parts are personal.

Thanks for reading and have a great week!
AnnJ
"Think before you speak"

I love helping people...

I'm not rich so I don't help people with money, BUT if I could I definitely would!

So I try my best to bring positive thoughts in them. I like to open their mind to see what is important and what they have told me, I show them in such a way that they actually realize I wasn't who told them those good things about themselves...they told me, I just brought their words out to them so that they could see, that they do care more about themselves, more than they realized.

I like to say, "Look to the bright side of things" or "Turn those negatives into positives", and life seems less depressing that way for them. I give examples, of why they should appreciate their lives and what they do have. I remind them that, someone somewhere, has it worse and that they should be grateful. I try to teach these things to my child as well but he is still too young to understand and care about such things right now. He also has aspergers syndrome, so it's a bit harder to comprehend such things for him right now. I do hope that in the future, he will see.

Some people have called me selfish and self centered...Those are the kinds of people, I try my best to avoid...Not because they are right, or that I think they are right, but because I know they are just saying it to hurt me and in the past it did bother me, but I know myself more now, and I know what they say about me is not true.

Sadly there are people in this world who try their best to hurt others in order to get some kind of thrill out of knowing they hurt you. This was my main reason for posting about "Letting go", because even though we care so much, it's harder staying within their life. I know I cry more about these things, than they do. And that is what makes it easier to stay away. I don't like crying, because my tears were caused just to please themselves. So just let go of those who only hurt you, to please themselves...NOT because you don't care (because you know you do!), but because they do their best to show you, they don't!

So now, I want to say something..."just because others don't 'see' you helping others, it does not mean that you aren't" And truthfully, I like helping others because know I helping others (in the best ways I can), makes me feel good...And I don't brag about it, because I am not doing it to prove a point, I do it because it feels good!

I hope everyone has a great weekend, and for those of you hurting or feeling depressed or even putting yourself down..Please don't! Keep your head up, make a list of all the things you like about yourself...and DO NOT make a list of dislikes!

AnnJ 

 

To all the fathers!!

Sorry I didn't write a father's day blog post today, I have been down all day!

I was always the daddy's girl, and he has been gone since 2009. I have been missing him more and more lately, as he use to be the only one I could talk to who didn't judge me on what I said.

When it comes to conversations, I am not always so good at expressing things. That's why I like writing and being online. But even at times if I am upset or in a rush to get my thoughts out..I do not think it through and that is when people can see what I mean by this.

Anyways I'd like to say Happy Father's day to all you dad's watching and Happy Father's day to all the moms out there that have to play both roles.